In another life, one I almost lived, I was a musician.
A few nights ago, I found myself inside a dream so real that it was impossible to move my head, even in the dream.
The song began, wrapped in gauze, growing in intensity, like a delayed crescendo.
Even when I awoke, the song intensified in my head.
I sat up on the side of the bed, repeating the reverb chorus of it over and over.
I’m not convinced I was dreaming.
The melodic voice on top of this track eludes me, although I can remember most of the lyrics, which in itself is unusual for me.
The protagonist in my dream danced and moved in accompaniment to the unsettling music, eyes locked in on mine. I wasn’t sure what was about to happen, but whether fortuitous or calamitous, I didn’t care. The movements were like an unending crescendo.
Though I haven’t used it much in several months, I opened several iterations of my music software and began compiling the components of the song from my dream. Although one’s dreams always convey a couple of levels that honestly aren’t experiential, the result is reasonably close.
And even now, as I listen with headphones, I feel like I might be sitting in two places simultaneously, so powerful was the feeling of being in two places at once while I dreamed. It’s a good thing I haven’t used drugs.