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Adeiu

In the dead of early morning, I walked through the new massive Drake Farms. It’s already a spectacle of modernity. Enthusiasts of liminal photography should visit this place early in the morning and before its completion. It’s an unfinished world devoid of people. It is Langoliers in reverse. Time scrolls forward, adding and adding until everything becomes squares and rectangles. 

Drake Farms is going to be a billion dollar place spanning 165 acres, thousands of homes, and untold businesses contained in well over a million square feet. I wonder what Noah Drake would make of it. The plan is to preserve his original grove of black walnut trees. I’ve reminded a couple of people that the area is indeed losing something difficult to define with all of this construction. But I also point out that Noah Drake himself was an avid proponent of growth and development. His footprint is everywhere if you know where to look. When the Pendegraft building went up, I loved its rustic look as I walked or drove by it multiple times a day. In the back of my mind, I knew that it was intended to be the anchor of a massive incursion into the wilderness.

I looped back on to West Drake. It’s one of the last secret places where you can stand and be equidistant from lights. About halfway between Gregg and 112, it is stunning in the dark. It provides a rare vantage point to watch the entire sky. The U of A Agri facility provides a barrier to the South. Drake Farms will eradicate the dark beauty of the night soon enough.

Two vehicles rocketed past, both of them easily going 80 mph. Although it’s rare, they are at risk of colliding with one of the infrequent deer who run along the cyclone fence of the Agri facility. Two years ago in November, the hair on the back of my neck stood up as a huge deer sprinted toward me from behind and raced past. Had I not been startled, I could have touched it. It finally found a spot on the north side from which to leap across and into the wilderness. The wilderness that will soon be concrete and conduit. 

The night/early morning was breathtakingly still. Each bird call and each twig snapping carried far beyond its normal reach.

I didn’t want to leave the long lonely stretch. I saw three meteors as I stood or walked back and forth along the length of Drake. 

Returning, I stopped at the huge X and took a picture of the hill and of the beautiful luminous moon that’s two days away from being full. Even the contrails from high altitude planes are gorgeous as they streak and spread, remaining behind for minutes after the plane streaks away. They’re ice crystals trapped in the upper atmosphere. That’s where contrails got their name: condensation trails. 

I knew I had to walk this route again soon. Like so many other places, encroachment incrementally eradicates its deep and dark natural beauty. The walk I took this morning was a goodbye. 

Those who think I’m too maudlin won’t appreciate that I was a little upset. The night world exposes and amplifies each loss of dirt and trees.

Lights, once placed, never cede control back to nature. 

Ordinary World

Today was someone’s last day at work after a total of 40-plus years. Such lengths of service have become increasingly unlikely given how much the world has changed and how differently companies operate. 

I’ve been at my job well over 21 years. The succession of new faces renders as a blur. When an anchor person such as the woman retiring today departs, you know things will be different. 

Someone who retired almost 5 years ago after an impressive run showed up for the retirement celebration. The gap between the years collapsed to such a degree that I felt like it was merely a month ago. At her party, I remember quoting Andy from The Office: “I wish there was a way to know you’re in ‘the good old days,’ before you’ve actually left them.”  Everyone knew when she left that something fundamental was shifting. 

It’s likely that only older people can feel the sublime emotion that signals recognition that, in some ways, regardless of our current reality, we’ll likely look back on just about every definable era as worthy of remembering. 

I should have known better than to turn on the radio in the sweltering heat of my car as I left today. There was one second of silence before the next song started playing. “Ordinary World” by Duran Duran. I’m not particularly fond of the group, but this song always touches emotions that go beyond the alleged subject matter.

“…What has happened to it all?

Crazy, some’d say

Where is the life that I recognize? (Gone away)

But I won’t cry for yesterday, there’s an ordinary world

Somehow I have to find…”

Strange that tears would come to my eyes. It’s almost as if these moments remind me that on some secret level, we know we are not chasers of things. And yet, we are more defined by possessions, routine, and obligation than we will ever be by the wild creative potential lurking inside of us. 

Hell is truly other people. But stop to imagine how much more hellish life would be without the people spanning the decades with us. 

Movie

One of those thought experiments that fascinates me is the movie one. IF your life were a movie being watched by an audience, what would they be screaming at you? 

Chances are, for most of you, something immediately came to mind. And whatever that is? That should be your focus of change. 

The lights were gorgeous this morning.

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PS…

I could hear shouts as I cut through the pylons that blocked the side street that once connected traffic coming off of Leverett. 

As I approached, I could see two people standing on their tiny outcropping balcony in the dark. 

The young guy was angry and said some things that shouldn’t be said. He stormed back inside and shut the door to the balcony. 

As I passed, the young woman looked down and saw me. “I’m sorry about that,” she said.

“It’s been a rough night?” It popped out of my mouth before I thought about it. It’s a common predicament for me. 

“Yes.”

“It’s obvious I’m old. If you don’t want to be standing on this balcony again in a year, you’re going to have to leave him.”

“I know.”

“I hope you get some sleep and have a better Saturday.”

When I reached Garland, I turned to see that she had gone back inside.

Ignorance

The problem isn’t “not knowing.” It’s the preference toward certainty over discovery.

Curiosity demands humility. Reality is always greater than our understanding. 

Do we put in more work to preserve our filters and biases, defending them, or do we recognize our lack of understanding? 

Creativity demands alternative explanations for everything, even what “everyone knows.” Intellectual stagnation is a complete failure of imagination, starting with the idea that what we know is incomplete. Or likely wrong. 

Ignorance is not about what someone knows. It’s how they respond to not knowing. 

Ignorance only survives because we seek certainty, comfort, and identity.

Existential

About 1 in 10 drivers in Arkansas don’t have a valid driver’s license. Those 10% are responsible for 25% of accidents. 

After rewatching my video yesterday of the highly trained police officer getting seriously injured outside of my apartment, I realized it’s time to once again remind everyone that nothing protects us from the chaos of random circumstance. All those years of training and becoming a masterful motorcyclist amounted to nothing when confronted with an idiot without a driver’s license and in too much of a hurry to yield to traffic. 

You can be the smartest, healthiest, most careful person in the world. You can do everything right. 

There’s always going to be an idiot without a driver’s license or someone in too much of a hurry to remember that it’s not worth it to be in a hurry, to be angry, or to remember how precarious it is to be encased in a biological body. 

You can work yourself to the bone, being loyal, diligent and doing your job. And that job can be swept out from under your feet without warning.  Often by people who are callous to the fact that money fails to compare to the impact on human beings. 

We can dedicate ourselves to being compassionate citizens, only to wake up one morning and realize that the people in charge have lost touch with their intended purpose. 

The balancing act never ends. We have to find a way to keep moving no matter what craziness happens to us. Even when we’re bitter, pissed off, or unsure whether anything we do really matters. 

I try to keep an eye out for the people who seem to be positive even when they’re getting slapped. It’s a rare attitude and probably more important than intelligence or hard work. 

PS You don’t have to wave at the grim reaper. He already sees you. 

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Axe Me

We all use shorthand to communicate, even if it’s technically incorrect. That’s what fascinates me about language. Whether it’s the grammar police or people who have a pet peeve about things they perceive to be an accurate or wrong, the reality is that usage prevails over perceived correctness. Even if it makes your heart palpitate or your left eye twitch. 

Lately, I’ve been biding my time and waiting. The other day, a self-appointed guardian of the imaginary rules of English stepped in it. 

“F.B.I.  is not an acronym. We describe it as an acronym but that’s not actually correct.”

“What? Of course it is. What are you talking about?”

“An acronym is pronounced as a word in and of itself, like ‘I.C.E.’ If you don’t pronounce the first letters in totality as a word, it is an initialism.”

Silence and confusion. 

“That’s a technicality. Everyone knows what we mean when we call it an acronym.”

I smiled, a tiger trap of acknowledgment. 

“Duh. That’s exactly how the rest of the world feels when you correct them. They’re communicating, not writing  a thesis.”

“If I was interested…”

I cut them off, making a slashing motion with my hand. “That’s a violation. Improper use of the subjunctive.”

I didn’t even get the chance to say goodbye as the person walked away.

I should have axed them if they wanted to go get an expresso with me. I could of, but I didn’t feel like being pacific about it. 

¡Viva el caos!

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Saturday

Which weirdo has all the magenta light coming out of the window? Additionally, how did I not know that the word ‘gulab’ is a synonym for rose? 

The thunder of the birds started early this morning as the moon drifted down. 

As I walked this morning, I listened to an amazing article in Spanish this morning regarding the new unified universal health care system for Mexico. There’s no reason we don’t have the same here except for ignorance and profit motive. Maybe one day after enough people have suffered we’ll tear down what’s obviously not working here. Probably not.

Dumbass-Keurig Effect

Maximum confidence. Minimum information. 

People who know the least tend to be the most certain. I see it day in and day out. I modified the original name of this and call it the Dumbass-Keurig effect, because it’s likely you’ll hear the dumbest nonsense when someone’s holding a cup of coffee and giving an opinion, completely oblivious to the fact that you want to put in an MRI order for them just to determine whether there’s a brain in there or not.

As an example, someone close to me recently had to deal with someone calling one of the most knowledgeable, educated people she knew “dumber than a box of rocks.” 

It’s a tactic employed by ignorance to dismiss the presence of knowledge and intelligence. It’s corollary is the boring and clichè “no common sense” accusation. 

Ignorance is a fixable condition. We’re all ignorant about a variety of things, often including things that deeply affect us. That’s okay, provided that we accept our lack of knowledge and understanding. 

Which leads me back to my original point:  Don’t leave your fingers inside the door frame when you close the car door. 

Observation

“It’s not that evil wouldn’t recognize itself in the mirror. It never pauses for self-reflection. Evil is compromised by certainty. It’s not that all certain people are evil, but it’s demonstrably true that all evil people are certain.”

-Quote from an obscure American

Güino is incredibly close to being 18 now. I put him on a freshly-washed towel so that he could enjoy the warmth.

Villainous Language

Very few people know that the word “villain” originally meant ‘farmhand’ or ‘villager.’ It doesn’t take a genius to figure out how the word morphed from descriptive to pejorative. 

Our language is riddled with words that are based in class and hierarchy, which fascinates me. 

I’ve always been interested in the pretentious rigidity some people judge language, both grammatical and orthographical. 

It’s all made up. Struggling against it is a loser’s battle.